NaddyyrahBunc

2010-10-18T15:23:00.001+08:00

Dead blog, sorry!
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.Ask me anything,babies

I feel good, honey.

2010-05-20T13:00:00.002+08:00

Hello ! I am absent from school today. I've been feeling really sick and weak for the past few months. Malay O' levels is really near. We're having intensive classes everyday and i swear, i can die. Things at home are not doing as good as usuals. Problems, can never run from that. To add on to the tension, had a great fight with Afad over something unreasonable. For him being a twenty-five years old man, i just hope he could be more rational and reasonable. Instead of being ridiculous. I really hope it's the best to everything between us. I thanked god for showing the other side of you before I'm too late. For the fact of it, the other side of you is, tremendously very ugly and unbelievable. I am honestly disappointed with you. So does my mother. Just hope there will be someone that will be able to knock in some sense into you. If not, your big ego will sure kill.
Apparently, I did very badly for my Mid-year Exams. That clearly shows how far I am from being ready for my major exams. Screw me. Mother nagged about us producing this kind of bad results. Back up,NAD ! There is noway that you can make it for sec five if you keep on slacking !

2010-03-11T19:28:00.003+08:00

Apparently, I've been having a very restless nights. Bahh ! Some things are just not right and i am indeed, fcuking pissed. && I'm really sad that i have to kissed my 150bucks goodbye. A portioon of my school money that i has been saving has to be given away to my mother for my handphone bills and some other things. * PADAN AKU PEH MUKER ARHH!

2010-03-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

I THINK I suffer from Second Child Syndrome.

Okay,ThankYouBye.

Stomach ache is killing me, like seriously.

I wish I knw what was th cause because I hate it much.

Maths and Physics paper was fucking hard. Sayonara to distinction.

Apparently, I passed my POA. I did very well i cn say.

Well, that is just POA. What about th others. Lets just see. =.=!

Malay paper did not lay easy on us. It was sumpah very difficult and confusing.

If I fail. It's gonna be such a disgrace. I swear i will smack myself hard on th face. Bodoh !

Geography paper tmrw. Last paper. Studied. Hope it's enough. Not, Die.

Hope class test can help. Please.

`"where got time for exams. ? " WHATEVER BRATHER ! Nyehe !

2010-03-06T23:16:00.003+08:00

It's the CT week. I've been mugging my ass of. Hope th it will pay off. Insyallah. Been passing many of my tests these days. Alhamdullilah. An improvement, i can say. I just have to tell myself not to be too complecent. Hehs. I tend to be one at times,though. O level Malay is pinching me real hard. To be honest, i kinda regretted taking O level Malay. Even mum said so. Is there any chances that i can drop O level Malay and just take my N level ? I yet to ask cikgu though. I don't have th courage to do so, i don't know. It even feels so weird to have him looking at his students everytime he talks. What more to talk with him personally. Wadduuuhhh ! I really feel like taking Normal level paper. Been having drastic drops in my Malay tests. That, i swear has been a very discouraging factor for me. Seriously. Chemistry instead, is getting okay for me. I am now more motivated to get in Chemistry class now. Even though i dont really favour th teacher. Because, I came to a realisation that, how much you hate that teacher and refuse to pay attention in class or even skip her class or not doing her hmwrks to show any form of attitude. It is really not a worth it action. Because at th end of they day. We are th one at lost. Not the teachers. We are th one who going to seat for th major exams that will determine our future. Not th teachers. Yeah ! Jia Yo, Dee!

Been having late night talks with Mumsie lately. && I gotta admit it does feel very good. She told me how much he is hopping for me to be promoted to secondary five and get into Poly. Insyallah ma. I will work hard and ace my exams. I will, Insyallah make you and Baba proud. Amin. Even though that, it's gonna be some kind of pressure larh kan. But nvm. Heees ! ~

&& thnks to Myn for th respond about my previous post. Appreciate it much. I hope I'm not troubling Mama in any way larh hor. & you certainly made me jealous just now. Bahhh ! it's been a long time since i last hold on to an infant. I yearn for it. Adooi.. :D

A break is just th thing we people need now. But its really saddening that we're not going to enjoy th upcoming one week school holiday. Why ? All because, we have to attend make up classes. Walauuuu! =.=! // Be optimistic dee. This is for your own benefits !!!

&& Omg am I just yearning for good quality camera. :(

2010-03-04T20:30:00.004+08:00

I am looking for this Victoria Secret's body lotion. I can't seem to find it. My cousin bought it for me when he went to Australia and i really really REALLY love th smell.I found it online but I'm scared to order it online because I've never done it before. So, whoever had came across this or knows anybody that do online shopping and do direct selling that i can order from. Kindly inform me please.. Thnks. 81286874. :D

2010-02-19T22:36:00.004+08:00

There's so much to say. I wish i could just say it out to you.

Someone told me i should take
caution when i comes to love
i did, i did.

2010-02-12T22:26:00.002+08:00

th gubahan i made with mumsie just now. Proud of th turn out, really. Hah! Great minds thinks alike yaww. So, it's few days away from th engagement day. It's going to be hectic, i think. But i won't be too involve, remember ? Hah! Anyways, it reads.. Selamat bertunang Nurul Ashikin & Mohd Fairuzi 14/02/10. Semoga berkekalan ke jinjang pelamin. Amin .

&& Happy chinese new year to you guys. Have a great long weekends ahead. :D

2010-02-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

Can we have HOLIDAYS already ?

guess I'm tired if getting tired already. :D

2010-02-05T17:03:00.001+08:00

; for you ♥

2010-02-04T14:18:00.003+08:00

*Look up ! This picture plus bby looked so yeloow-ish. Haa,whatever !Bby really made my day. Really naughty she can be at times, at th end of the day..she never fail to cheer and brighten up my day. I LOVE her ! I thanked god for having you around :D

Apparently, school ended super early today. So obviously i got th chances to fetch my babygirl from school. She was so excited when she show me infront of her classroom door. She got out from her class with a very big smile,hugged and kissed me. I was really touched. Adooi.. Everything seems to fly away when i looked at her smile and being so close to her,really.
SIDETRACK.Mama,baba,yaya,zee,liyah&bby are my everything. Even though i had laods of arguements with mama&baba and siblings..at th end of the day, they're my BLOOD and life. I love you guys. Greatful to be born in such families. Cudn't ask for more,i believe.

2010-02-03T22:12:00.006+08:00

Itu gmbar kat atas, feeling sexy.NOT ! Okay, whatever. I just need a break. Period !

I'm missing alot of peepos now. I wonder where have they been. Woii korang.. rindu korang larhh sangat sangat ! Whereas I know some might have just be...dead. Whatever arh. Play dead all you want. Aslkan korang bahagia. OkayThankyouBye! :D

Shout out to Budak budak Chuchooo, Congrats to you guys. At last, "awok-awok terbaik" kekapeh ? Haaa ! Even though, tak dapat placing.. itu tak menghambatkan hati korang untuk tetap berbangge dengan kerje keras yang telah dilakukan. Syabas oiy oiy oiy. Next stop... Mega Perdane kepehh ? Conform arhh ehyy ! :DD SIDETRACK Syafiq omg, kamu sungguh hawt hawt !

To th other groups especially CHAMPION, Keris. Followed by First runner-up, Andika and Second runner-u..DurbarDua. You guys obviously own th stage that night. Congratulations ayerh :D Still , tuntut ilmu zaman berzaman.. cara berbeza..tujuan sama!

2010-02-02T15:57:00.005+08:00

I've never felt this way before.
All th things i do reminds me of you.
Bottom line, I MISS YOU babe.

2010-01-30T12:05:00.002+08:00

2010-01-28T21:34:00.001+08:00

please ?

2010-01-27T20:37:00.011+08:00

Lethargic is th word baby.

Stress is th mood baby.

School has been a very very tiring thang for me. && Ohh, I never thought learning O level's Malay can be difficult and frustrating. Got all disappointed when i got a total ZERO for my comprehension section. Never in my schooling life had i ever got that,really. Such a disgraced,i tell you. Got me more pissed when doing th correction part.All th answers are there but what made it got a very big X was th language part. Must have subjek dan predikat thingy. Alamerk, sumpah tak ingat dan tak dipratikkan seyy. Same for Karangan. Matilarh mati. =.=!

Sister's getting engage this coming Chinese New Year. I swear i won't get too involve and ain't gonna say much. Just hope this time, she made a wise choice.May it will last till marriage and forever.Insyaallah,amin.

Too much is going through my mind. && It sucks big time to be in this kind of situation, I swear.

I never said I wanted you to leave. I never did said Goodbye.~

Jangan pernah punya andaiaan sendiri tentang perasaan wanita,
kerana sesungguhnya wanita memang sukar difahami.

2010-01-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, things are just never meant to be .
I'm sorry, goodbye baby.

2010-01-21T19:58:00.003+08:00

Jangan sesekali mengucapkan selamat tinggal

jika kita masih ingin mencuba.

Jangan sesekali menyerah kalah

jika kita masih sanggup.

Jangan sesekali menyatakan tidak lagi cinta

jika kita masih lagi tidak mampu untuk melupakan.

[ ~random ! ]

I think, I would just care less right now. I don't want to bother about all these nomore. I swear. Being ignorance, i will. Fuck you guys out there that are just plainly trying so hard to bring me down. I believe I'm a strong girl. Okay ? ThankyouBye !

I can not care about you anymore but i choose not to. Why? Simply, i still do care ! Like seriously, is that a sin ? Is that something wrong even if I've hurt to bad for th past years. && hell, i don't need your cousin to text me whatever he'd said yesterday. I was just confuse and i've told you god knows how many times. Seriously larh. I don't want to take th blame for your sickness. Partially, i know IT IS because it's me that you're thinking too much of until you got all that migranes and what not. I've told you countless of time to never overwork yourself and please take care of yourself. At th other hand, what do i get ? " why so concern, as if you're taking care of me ? " " why you care so much, as if he's someone special but you've hurt him so much? " wth, i must say. WTH !

2010-01-08T20:58:00.003+08:00

Just for th satisfaction of myself, i will just say to you this.SCRAM OFF AND GET A FUCKING LIFE,MATHAFUCKER ! I'm having much great anger in myself right now. God knows i really really REALLY need to vent it out. It has already been a distraction in me. That's th last thing that i would want to happend. I got to get myself focus,man ! Gahh, why must people like you exist in this world. DURJANA's like you should just be dead or maybe, kidnapped by Aliens ! Sumpah aku benci arh. Like seriously larh. When are humans going to stop hurting and destroy one another in one way or another before realising it's already too late. You can come out with, i don't know fucking shit kind of excuses and reasons but hell no am i going to buy any of it. I don't think I'm that stupid even though yes, i can be dumb at times. Whatever, i'm just trying to convience myself to ignore all this because I KNOW i don't need all this shit. I had enough and i was a mistake to be in another one. Let KARMA revolves around you. Sooner or later. Let malaikat sepak kaw peh muker kasi kaw sedar larh ehy. I know I've got mine..

; Harus sentiasa ada kemaafan dalam diri walaupun hati habis dimamah cinta.

Tapi sampai bila hati dan diri harus menanggung kesengsaraan apabila acap kali dilukai. Acap kali dirobek luas dengan tingkah laku insan lain. Tomahan dan kelakuan manusia yang tanpa disedari, telah mememusnahkan sesama manusia dalam apa jua segi.

2009-12-31T21:16:00.002+08:00

2010's coming soon. So fasst! -.-"! I'm damn pissed and down right now. Family are dragging me to Marina Barrage later. Blood are going to be there. Just what i needed. Drink till you can drink no more. Get drunk and wake up th next mornin not remembering what happened th day before. God, forgive me.

2009-12-30T20:19:00.003+08:00

Lari, aku lari.

Untuk mencari ketenangan diri.

Keluhan di hati tak siapa yang tahu,

Ku simpan semua sebak didada.

I've been really emotional and sensitive these days. Escpecially today.A cry baby,I've been. Thinking too much, I guess. My eyes are all swollen now. Cried myself out but yet to feel any satisfaction or puas-ness. Well, people did say that you'll definitely fell better after a good cry. I assume, not for me. I still feel like crying more but just can't because I don't think i have anymore tears to cry out with. Sedih, sungguh. Labels~ Emotional breakdown sucks big time.

A big OMG to me. If Arshad didn't asked me about where i'll be at forcoutdown tmrw, I wouldn't remember that tomorrow is already th 31st. Means, th countdown. Really. Well baby, there's really nothing for me to Celebrate. Plus, I really am too down to go anywhere. No promises,alright. About your birthday thingy, we'll figure out something okay. My apology and i just want to thank you for having patience and thanks for tolerating me. Me being irrational and what not. Thank you so much,cinta.

To YOU, i was somewhere with mother just now to do some ITE registration for my sister. Also, I don't think it's th best step to have a meet up now. I don't know why but i just feel i can't face you,really. My apology.

I received a call from Mr.Imran(HOD for Malay Language.) He offered me take O'LEVEL for my Malay even though i did pretty bad for most of my subjects. He said, he knows i can ace it. I deserve to take me O's, he said. Since I've been achieving Best in Malay Language every year. So, it will be a waste to not have to me taking th o level paper. Well yeah, not bragging. Just saying. Thank you for th offer,cikgu. Still, school re-open is getting very very VERY near.. I really have to give a wake up call to my brain. I really have to work my ass of. Study hard and ace my N level. 2010's th year,honey. Rahhh ! Stress mangkok aku babe!~

RAH-RAH-AH-AH-AH

ROMA-ROMA-AH-AH

GA-GA-OHH-LA-LA !

AKU STRESS BABE. TUHAN, TOLONG !

2009-12-28T22:58:00.006+08:00

Past few days sucks. Big time. I don't know why things never got better for me. Much for not TRYING ? Well, i think so. School re-opening soon. I've not don't my homeworks. Get myself ready for next year. Great. Doing last minute things has been my thang since forever. I've been getting myself into hatred of many now. Getting people mad and fucked up,pissed with me. Bagos skali. Like i got nothing better to do. Sumpah prangai stop it.

Arshad, Sorry for th things I've said to you. Never meant to mean any bad. I was just saying what i feel. I've apologised and now it's up to you. Been irrational,I've been but I think you know why. So much of wanting to be pampered and being treated like a Princess,huh ? Well, i forgot you have a life to lead and I'm nobody. Maybe some things are just never meant to be,huh ? I don't know but i LOVE being your friend and LOVE your esxistence.

YOU, Whatever you've said made me word-less. You left me with nothing to say, at all. I cried reading what you've typed. My heart beats faster. It felt like it has been gripped hard by something. Have to admit, i do remember EVERYTHING clearly. From that performances to even about th long conversations we had when I was over at my grand's years back. About having a room that has been divided into two that has different colours and features for two different person.. God, those were th days. I thanked god for having you in my life. No words could be used to describe how happy I was when we were together. Those memories together are sure to be cherish. Those moment were great,sweet moments we had. We were so close. We were so contented with each other. We've made a very great and signicficant impact in each other's life in one way or another, that's for sure. For sure too you didn't expect things will turn out to be like this. Neither do i. As much as I didn't see it coming, I know it all happened because of me. Like honestly, God knows I'm not good with words nor expressing. I don't know what to say or what to do. I'm just a confused bitch that knows nothing about taking care of you. Your feelings or what not. Despite all th hurt Ive caused, you were still patient with me. You still got th faith in me, to change. But NEVER do i fail to disappoint you. I never did change. Change to becoming th all me. Th me that you knew 4 years ago. Whatever i've said on th previous post, yet got th intention to tell you right up to your face. I was just typing what i feel.Wasn't expecting you to read it also. Meet you? Say it right up on your face? God knows and you do too that I never can look you right in th eye and take to you about all this. I just can't.Being together for 3 years and loving each other so much is th main reason why we can't move on. You always thought I did but let me tell me something, I never did move on. Okay?

2009-12-23T21:49:00.003+08:00

I'll reach out my hand to you

I'll have faith in all you do

Just call my name and I'll be there.

I'll be there to comfort you

Build my world of dreams around you

I'm so glad to find you

I'll be there with a love that's strong

I'll be your strength

I'll keep holdin' on.

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter

Togetherness,is all I'm after

Whenever you need me, I'll be there.

I'll be there to protect you

With an unselfish love

That respect you.

; Thank you for dedicating this song for me. Appreciate it much. You're sweet. Lets just hope everything is real.

Babe, it was a shock that you called me early in th morning and asked if I'm okay. Well, i am. In fact, I'm th one who should be asking you if you're okay.I think i know why you called. I've been keeping silent from you for th past few days. I thought it was th right thing to do cause i didn't thought my absence will make a difference.I guess, it does,huh? I bet you miss me already. I had my reasons why i kept quiet. I felt too left out babe. You'll only text or call me or ask me out when you got problems to tell me. I don't mind having my ears to listen,my shoulder for you to cry on.Still, do take it as a consideration of my feelings. I want to be and FEEL like a person that is important in your life. I guess I'm not th only one feeling neglected. Even your family especially MOTHER is feeling neglected. Your action are just too much now. You are spending too much time with your friends and guyfriends. Wth. I'm your blood but it doesn't mean i should be liking and nod with everything that you're doing. Do you even know what you want ? You got all fucked up when someone called you a bitch when well, you are acting like one. I'm not saying that i'm all perfect but heyy, YOU ARE SOMEONE I LOOKED UP TO! I used to be your closest girl you've been to until SHE came. Now you share everything with her. Your happiness, th fun and what not. I know you spend like almost everyday with her at work. But heyy, you can always make time for someone that you love babe. Furthermore, we're family babe. Time is never a problem,to be true. It all depends on you. It's either you are keen or otherwise.Apai, apai is afterall someone you call your Boyfriend but i see that you're mingling with many more guys babe.Until abang have to call me and asked about your whereabouts. What? What are you doing babe,really?You need to get your priority straight babe. You don't even spend much time with blood and family anymore. More to your outside friends and life,instead. You've changed too much babe. Not to th better,that's so sure. My NIECE explains all babe. Please larh babe,CHANGE for real and for th better..It's really saddening.

;" cakap orng pandai, diri sndiri tak betul." Say whatever you want, i would just care less. Thank you.Bye!

2009-12-22T15:38:00.008+08:00

" You talk as if you are taking care of me and as though you are fiving me hope but actual fact is, we just can't get along. What is hope for when it's empty ? "

God knows what you said slapped me hard. Wow,i must say.Thnks for making me reliase something. Just reliased that i just have to put everything to a STOP! I've hurt too much. Enough is enough. Everything has it limits, I'm very aware of that. How much longer must this go on ; How much longer should i be waiting and bear with all crap, you asked. Well i don't know myslef cause GUESS WHAT ? I don't even know what i want now. Th courage to go on my days with an AIM to strive for and th want-to-make-things-better FADED. That explains th GO WITH TH FLOW. Yeah, it might show that I've lost interest and just want to give up on th relationship we've been together for YEARS just like that as if I'm going to lose NOTHING. I know I''ve been doing nothing to show how keen i am to save it. I know I've not been showing how bad i want this like how you are showing me. All th long text means nothing if no actions are done. I know, i know. Action speaks louder thn words. Well, i have to admit that i suck in doing BOTH. You might say, YOU CAN AT LEAST TRY! I don't even know where to start. I don't want know what's happening to me. I don't know what i've turned to be now, someone who just never fails to hurt people around her. Very very VERY bad and mean person who is going to do nothing about it I am, now.It sucks to be me right now, i tell you. I'm building hatred in people towards me right now whe Im suppose to make people LOVE me.

To YOU, my apology for all th hurt I've caused you. I know, an apology won't make things better. I just don't want to hurt you anymore because God knows you don't deserve to be in this kind of state. You've suffered long enough. It's just th time for you to find th right person to feel th happeniess again. Th feel to love and be loved again.I don't want th good things that awaits you are all held back just because of me. You know, i want to see you happy. You know i would want to see you achieve your goals in life. & i know too that now, maybe walking away from your life is much more better. No more of th I'M GIVING YOU HOPES.Enough of me leaving you hanging.No more hurts, as i know.. it's going to be best for you.For your future. As much as you haf made a very significant and great impact in my life,things have to change. For it is FATE ? Only God knows..

; Mencari satu USAHA tetapi belum tentu ia satu PENENTUAN.

Miracle can only happen when action and effort is taken place.

; Bbe, miracle are things that happen unexpectedly. Something you thought was impossible turned out to be possible. Th magic of GOD.

2009-12-21T10:20:00.010+08:00

Come to love not by finding a perfect person. But by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Being in a relationship is not my priority right now. Im sorry for being a Bitch to many people. Maybe i have a reason why I'm like this. I don't know. Some might say "heyy, i don't know who you are anymore." Well, guess what? Me too, don't know who i am anymore. True enough.Fck that! someone will say"watch your language!" I know,some people are getting impatient with me with my shit and nonsense. My endless crap,unreasonable,tantrums and attitude are just too much ? I think so. I know i know.

2009-12-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

Am really really REALLY sick right now. It sucks big time when you're down with a terrible cough and flu. I've used up to like, what ? 5 boxes of tissue for my nose for today. Thats how bac my flu is larh. Despite eating th medicine, i still feel th same. Pathetic arh kaw! Th only thing that has gone is my sore throat. Thnks to Afad who taught me what to do to get rid of th awful sore throat. That is to drink RICEWATER. Weird much ? I really works i tell you. Alhamdullilah. Put a lil amount of cooked rice in a cup and pour in some water. Leave it for half an hour. Thn drink. Before that, SELAWAT TIGA KALI(for muslims). Just drink th water not th rice. For those who have a very bad and painful sore throat, try ths. It really works :D

Just came back from everywhere. Been out since 6 in th morning and didn't had any sleep since thn. Sent my grandmother for her check up over at Alexandra Hospital and thn grandfather for his dialysis at Thomson Road. It was a pretty hectic day,plus me being super sick..i manage to get through it smoothly.Despite th cranky-ness in th car. Because i tell you, my younger sister can't keep their butt sticked on their seats and they suck in keeping their mouth shut. They don't know how to behave even after tons of endless scoldings and whatnot. Kids?I know. So what? They still have to be discipline. If not from young , WHEN thn ? When it's already too late? -.-" As much i love kids, i can sometimes be too impatient and can't tolerate much of their crap. Sometime,enough is enough.

Today is also my FATHER's birthday. Was proud to be th first person to wish him. For th first time on his birthday, he kissed everyday. That happened when th clock strike-d 12. We didn't get th chance to celebrate it today as yeahh * look above and that went for jamming ? -.-" Will have th celebration over at somewhere,someday. HAA, yet to decide where larh.

: CINTA adalah apabila kita merasakan senang dan ketenangan pabila kita bersua dengan seorang insan yang kita kasihi dan sayangi. Sesungguhnya cinta,kasih dan sayang adalah perkara yang berbeza.Sebuah perbezaan yang tak dapat dilafazkan dengan kata-kata tetapi dengan perasaan kita yang terbuku dihati.

2009-12-15T11:55:00.011+08:00

Happy Tuesday. I'm really really REALLY sick now. I don't seem to know th exact reason why. Because i know I've been very well days back. Having fun and what not. Lack of rest,maybe ? Whatever it might be, i swear my cough and sore throat is really killing me larh. Th sore throat is making me having difficulties in consuming my meals -.-" Sumpah aku benci ! Someone has been really nice despite th endless complains and whinning. *Smiles!

Last Sunday went for family outing over at East Coast Park. Not all were there. Still, we had lots LOTS of fun. I also got th chance to get closer to some cousins that i rarely see. It's nice to know they're more cousins of mine actually runs in th same frequency. She's actually can be one of our click. In a sense where actually, she do stuff like how me and my other cousins and blood did and are doing. So, welcome to th club ! :D Hanging out with my bitches was really a stress relief. Heart to heart talk and what not. Having this after a long time. Building up th bond again and seeing both grandparents smiling, sungguh BEST ! Oh, actually.. it's more thn just best. I don't know whatelse to use to describe th feeling. Haa ! Nvmind me.

We left ECP smewhat around 8plus and headed to Marina Barrage. Bloood was drunk when we left ECP.It was my first time there and god, its really beautiful with th lights and whatnot. Yeah, th kids can't get enough of water and can't resist th 'pools' there and went straight getting themselves wet. They were rreally having so much fun. Abang Iqbal(my sister's bf), Abang Apai(another sister's bf) came too. They had their time together there. Sumpah aku jealous.

Thn, we headed for supper after that. We went to three different places before settling down. First, went to Al-azhar and Al-ameen at Bukit Timah and FUUH ! Jam packed dookk. Ths people dk how to eat at home is it ? *speak for yourself Dee. Thn, to Makan Siok ? ( don't know exactly where's th plce and th spelling of th tmpat makan). Atlast, we got our decent supper over at Mr.Teh Tarik at jurong west. It was already like midnight plus plus and everybody went their own ways from themakan place. Th kids were already smhw shag and lethargic by thn including me and blood. * You know why! We were just enduring and keeping our cool because god knows we dont want to get busterd and make ourselves look obvious. Haa! STUPID people. Yeah, US !

Th next day, my cousin brother slept over. All of a sudden. I wonder why but don't bother to ask. I swear, he sleeps like a PIG. A beruang that sleeps like a babi. Haa, go imagine arhh ! Be creative. Haa ! He went for his night class from my house and left his stuff here.Sumpah dierh bawak barang macam nak lari rumah!

So yeah, that's bout Sunday and Monday. Today, Tuesday.. am going to just rest at home and get well because i got plans ths Saturday. *kening naek-naek! So, am going to be a good girl and just bear with th medicines..Benci seyy. Heh ! && Let be th dreams be just a dream, i can just take too much. Aku tak kuat.

2009-12-11T17:39:00.022+08:00

Been a bitch to some people today. That's how bad i can be when miss red came for a visit. Can be all fucked up an cranky. Can even get mad and cry over something small and even, something unnecessary! I don't like th feeling now, really. I don't know why, i'm being so emotional and feel so so SO insucered. I hate you,Miss Red! Kamu musuh,sumpah !

sebok nan Iphone dyerh !

Ini nak step photography, tapy asap tkder. -.-" Haha !

Ini,random.From where i was sitting. Haa !

Yesterday meet up with th babes was fun,like always. Went over to office and lend a helping hand since they were lack of manpower.* Missed th partime days:( Did some mail closing and sortings and unclaimed letters. Thre's really LOTs of unclaimed registered mails. All ths people living in buket panjang are all lazy people is it ? Rahh ! It was fun,overall && I was paid $20 for th not-even-4-hours work ? Greatt keppehh! Should have gone there for 'work' again today but i have to turn them down cause I'm not feeling good larh kann. Heh! Had dinner and lepak at Lot one. Crap-ped and smoked till th time striked 10,without us realising it. Train-ed back home.

; I may be Dumb but I'm not Stupid. // && I miss my niece ! Ohh god.....

2009-12-10T13:39:00.004+08:00

Iphone here Iphone there. I guess, people are now currently going crazy signing up lines for th Iphone ? Why, its not that good anyway. My cousin owns it and th reception is not good. Whenever we're on th phone.. at times, i can barely hear what she's saying. And without you knowing, your line will just end. Okaylarh, despite th good stuff about ths phone, i think its just lecehh. No bluetooth and whatnot. -.-! Have to dwnload itunes larh aperhlarh. HEYY, just be thankful with whatever phones you have man. Still, different people, different wants and needs. * Senyum! && Even,my dada wants to have ths Iphone. && yeah, mumsie is not liking th idea cause father's phone plan is not going to end until next year. So, HAHA !

Yesterday was fun fun FUN ! I really enjoyed myself. I'm overwhelm by how you guys treat me. I do know some of you because we've met at th previous competition. Korang sungguh kaki gerek. & it was really an experience to be there and watch thse people train. I've also learnt that dikir barat is not only about having strong full blast voice,singing and hand gestures.. Its MORE thn just that,really. Afad, as a one of th headman there smhow 'tortured' th juniors.As he is th man in-charged for th junior members. It was really nice to see th juniors having much passion and determination in making thngs right. You go guys ! :D *May you guys shine in th upcoming(next year) competition:D Lots of pictures were taken but all is with that beruang arhh . Haa.

Anyhoo, to YOU..Thnks for bringing me there okay :D

Will be going over to Bket Panjang later to meet some peepos. There's stuff to be settled and lets have our fingers crossed that things will go smoothly,please ehy. & Guess what? I'm down with fever all of a sudden. I don't why. && Ohh, my mama says i keep smiling when i was sleeping. HAAA ! I don't even know why th heck was i smiling. Still, i bet i was dreaming bout smthing nice. Or maybe, I'm just plainly insane larh kan :D

Have a happy Thursday ahead okayy people. :D

2009-12-09T13:31:00.006+08:00

Shawty's like a melody in my head. That i can't keep out, got me singing like..na na na na everyday...like th SONG stucked in my HEAD !

Haas, know that song ? Currently stucked in my head. So nice,th song. Well, now waiting for th time to strike 6.So i can go out and meet Afad.Follow him training. Woooohhhooo ! * Excited much. But * looks outside th window..It's raining already:( Mr rain, why must come today when they got outdoor training. Rain rain, go away..come again another day larh.Pretty please ?

Anyhoo, i woke up super early today.Like around 7.30 in th morning.Good kannn ! :D:D And yeah,already bought my school books and to my surprise. It didn't cost me that much. Less thn 100bucks. $ 55.35 to be exact larh. So i think th rest of th money left that has already been put aside for us each, can be use to buy th other school stuff. Like stationaries and whatnot. Gawdd...sumpah aku suker !Still, I'm not really looking forward for 2010. I don't know why.Maybe because I'm already feeling th pressure of N'level. * sedih. Nak taknak.. 2009 will be ending soon and there comes 2010.

As i said, i went to Boon lay yesterday and Alhamdullilah, everything went well. *Yeahh me ! :D One problem solved, another came up. Why must it be like that, always. When will problems stop popping up and let me rest from being stress. Benci taww ! Sumpah siiooott ! Another blood of mine is facing problems too. && boy do i just have to say..To you mathafucker, chimek mak kaww. Kaww jantan yang daus, and aku suggest kaww peh adek kaww py potong kasi anjeng makan pon sedap siol. Sumpah, kaww tkder care. && kaww, TAKE CARE !

Seriously, i just don't understand why ths people does exist in ths world. Because i think, they should just die. Better, die in an accident. Got run over a lorry balak ! Sumpahh korang sampai mati arh. Once a Jawa,will always be a Jawa. Hate that someone, will hate till mati !

; to love someone is one thing, but to be loved by someone you love means th world !

2009-12-08T11:48:00.004+08:00

Happy Tuesday ! Got my mother nagging early morning just now. It was only like, 8 in th morning and she is already nagging for everybody to wake up and do th housechores. Really annoying,i tell you. Already did my part. Wee ! *look up. I'm going over to ths lady's house later. Hopefully can make up to her for yesterday. Gawd, we were not in really good terms and wasn't really talking to each other after what had happened last month and what happened yesterday made it worst. Will get mother to help me buy th Magnum ice-cream and lets hope she won't be mad at me again.*fingers cross ! Cause i miss my blood like hell,really. We're very very VERY close to each other and now, this....*sigh!

To that someone,
I am really glad that you are now, safely home after that trip. I know you had a lil misunderstanding about my previous post. I hope I've made everything clear to you. But still, i bet you still have doubts towards me. Still, i can't blame you, can i? Cause these years, I've not been that faithful to you. & Since no names was typed in th previous entry..it got you curious and suspicious. I totally understand. Saye mintak maaf.

And thnks for th North star teaching. I guess, I'm smhow THAT dumb to been always thought th 3 stars in a straight row as satelite when they are actually th North-star. -.-" ! && ohh, that star.. is to be said can help you find your way out when you're lost*smiles.

okayy okayy, I better get ready now. && Ohh, someone skipped school today because he woke up late ^^

2009-12-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

I know you're mad at me because I didn't came down Admiralty to meet you. I know you've been wanting to meet me. I know its been a long time since we last meet up. I can't meet you cause i was with Afad working out things for his dikir stuff. I know you know that. I asked you to came down and join us.He is afterall, your friend seyy. I don't understand why you have to go haywire,really! I've apologies and is willing to make it up to you on Thursday. Why must you be so mean and just hang up on me when you know I'm not done talking. God knows how bad and guilty i felt. I just hope you can be more understanding sey.

I know it was my fault.I've apologies. But you.... *sedih !

2009-12-07T13:32:00.005+08:00

Happy Monday people ! Th rain welcomed today. Alhamdullilah! But now, Mr.Sun is up to shine again liao :D
Anyhoo, listen ! There's already song in my blog. All thnks for Farrisha darling :D Well, today..woke up late. I don't know why i felt so shag until I was too lazy to get my fat ass up from th bed. Actually planned to buy school books today but planned held up because why ? I woke up late larh ! Haa, mother nagged. Ma, there's always tmrrow yaknow. Chill!

Will be meeting Afad today. He needs help for th printing out of his dikir barat lyrics. So, since i got nothing to do at home. I offered to help. && I'm following him for his training this wednesday ! Jyeah, it was a surprise that mother actually allowed me to. Thnks beribu, ma *Peluk dan cium !

Currently smhow addicted to this song sang by Sean Kingston. Ia, sungguh Cute dan Benar. Th song is "Face down". Go listen kayy :D

2009-12-06T12:51:00.006+08:00

Hello earthlings ! Happy happy Sunday ! Th sun is really shining here and I don't know should I be liking it or otherwise. Haas, I'm going over to grand's later. Getting ready soon yaw. Hope 'TODAY will be a better day. Yeah. Had a bad dream last night,really. & Lets just hope it stays as a dream. Fullstop. Babes are at Sentosa right now. Enjoy yourself and happy tanning ? Haas!

Okayy okayy, now I'm having trouble inserting songs to my blog. I'm not really good with codes,i tell you. Got Yilin Darling to help,but i think she too, is struggling with th codes. Haaas. Sorry for troubling you and thnks :D All because of th navigations -.- ". Hope can put in song seyy. Or my blog will be more boring thn how it has always been. RAHH !

Anyhoo, have a pleasent and great Sunday ahead,ayerh ? Appreciate Mr.Sun and th people around you before they're gone and you,left with regrets. :D :D

2009-12-05T19:51:00.002+08:00

Helloo, well back blogging again. Yeah, it's th holidays and i'm just rotting at home. So, that explains why I'm here. Hehs! I've never NEVER been ths bored in my life.Ever ! Seriously, no kidding. You guys would nver want to know what i've been doing. Anyhoo, Í'm freaking having this great craving for LongJohn. I know i know. People that knows me will say "kauu nie, tkder laen kerhh..si John panjang tuu jgak kaww nak makan.!" Well, what can i say..i can't have enough of it.

Many people are greatly missed, i swear. Sorry to some babes and dudes for turning you guys down cause i didn't manage to go out with you guys when you asked me out. Despite of being oh-sungguh-bosan at home, god knows i got no $$ with me. *sedih. Kesian kan ? TAWU !

As you guys know, i got younger sisters. Aged 6 and 3. && both are going to school next year. Liyah is going to primary one whereas for Esya she'll be in nusery. YEAH, mum already bought th stuffs Liyah needs for next year. Kanchiong,much ? Haas. and boy is she so excited bout going to school. Tried her school uniform and schoolbag. Haa. As much as her being super annoying at times, it's cute, i tell you. Seeing her in her school uniforms and Esya in hers made me kinda sad. Knowing that they've grown so much and time really flies. :(

Two of my guy friends are really having problems with their love life. Me being th always there for whoever is in need..is there to give them whatever advice and support i can give. && I thanked god that with my endless advices, encourangement,sacrifies of sleep has been paid off with knowing that they've moved on and caring less bout what had happened. Like i said "disappoitment means nothing if no action were done to improve th situation and th outcome is far more heart break! " I'm a proud MAMA ! Haass.